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सायद….

2011-04-19T08:02:00.001-07:00

कोही चियाएर जान्छ सायद्

झसँग बिउझन्छु म

अनि हेर्छु आँखिझ्यालबाट

एक धर्सो जून पनि आएको छैन

ताराहरु पनि भेट्न आएनन आज

सायद्

आकाशको मन सफा छैन

यो रात निरस छ , निराश छ

अनि त कति उदास छ /

बिरक्त अनि टोलाउँदै बस्छु म

केलाउँदै ,

मेरो मन, अनि यी हरिया पातहरु

साँघुरो डोब भित्र जब,

पुरिन्छन यी हरिया पातहरु

अनि,

निस्सासिन्छ यो "अगुल्टो"

फुस्फुसाँउछ, निभेको चिताजस्तै

हाम्रो माया जस्तै , "उर्जाबिहिन "

म,टुक्रा-टुक्रा

"बादल" फुकिरहेको बेला

रातको कालो पछ्यौरी ओढेर "कोही"

त्यही बादल भित्र पसेर गुट्मुटिन्छ

लुकामारी खेलिरहन्छ /

यो गितारे धुन सन्तुलन हुन नपाँउदै

तिम्रो नाम चिच्याउन नपाँउदै

कतै-कोही गुनगुनाइरहेछ, मधुर गीत

रातको अदृश्य पर्दा पछाडि /

हरेक नसा-नसाभित्र बगिरहन्छौ तिमी

निकोटिन जस्तै सल्बलाईरहन्छौ तिमी

चसक्क छोएर मुटुभरि

मनभरि,तनभरि,अनि जताततै /

मात्तिसकेछु, हेर म आत्तिसकेछु

थाकिसकेछु, हेर म गलिसकेछु

टपक्क टिपेर लागिजाउ

यो स्पन्दन्, यो आत्मा अनि

यो एक मुठी शास्

लगिजाउ टाढा-टाढा,तिम्रो देश्

बादल पारिको देश

लेखक: मुकुन्द भण्डारी

Bachelor in Biotechnology, Kathmandu University

Sahayatra in Swapna Vatika

2011-04-17T01:22:00.001-07:00

Text: Shekhar KC, KU

Photo: Bijay Thapa, Active Academy

Sahayatra-An inter-college media students’ network held it’s weekly meeting of April 16 2011 Saturday in Swapna Vatika College, Sankhamul. Mr Bhim Lama, the bachelor in Journalism first year student of SV college coordinated the meeting. In the meeting, the president of Sahayatra Mr Amol Acharya gave a short introduction to the organization and informed about the temporary postponed notice of Sahayatra Picnic that was earlier schedule for Baisakh 10. Shekhar KC, the publication coordinator requested the students to submit their article as per assigned in earlier meetings. The new students were assigned to write article in their area of interest which will be publihsed in the May issue of Sahayatra Newspaper. Mr Anil Adhikary of Gramin College, Nepaltar informed the mass communication students about the program that was going to be organized on April 17, 2011 Sunday and where various mass communication teachers Nirmala Mani Adhikary, Laxman Datt Pant, Navaraj Lamsal were invited as guests. All the students present in the meeting of Swapna Vatika colleges were invited in the media related program as informed by Anil Adhikary urf M.C Chautanga.

In the three hour long meeting, Tirtha Aryal of SV academy sang a beautiful nepali song by Hemanta Sharma as a part of refreshment.

The details of students present in the meeting on April 16 2011 in Swapna Vatika college are listed below in the table:

Name	College	email	contact
Amol Acharya (President)	KU	amolsansar@gmail.com	9803394256
Bhim Lama	SV Academy College	b_tamang200@hotmail.com	9849197678
Sujit KC	Times International College	life_withu97@hotmail.com	9841359912
Ramesh Ghimire	Kavre Multiple College		9809283508, 9808868770
Sandeep Nepali	TTIC	my_khapper@yahoo.com	9841438556
Pasang Tamang	Pashupati Multiple Campus	iampasang@hotmail.com	9751015250
Sangita Dahal	Active	sg.nani@yahoo.com	9849095146
Kailash Khadka	Plc	k_cool45@yahoo.com	9841056400, 9849661168
Luna Raj Aryal	SV	himeluna@yahoo.com	-
Tirtha Raj Aryal	SV	tirthaaryal65@yahoo.com	9849124400
Gyan Kaji Tamang	SV	kaji_lama73@yahoo.com	9841137138
Shiva Raj Rijal	SV		9849038946
Prativa Dhital	SV	lovely_prativa@yahoo.com
Prem Lama	SV	kimbiya_lama@yahoo.com	9849649546
Gyanu B.K	SV	anigya20_coolgirl@yahoo.com	9849711721
Jasmine Ghising	SV	-	9807829108
Srijana Khadka	SV	srijana_64@yahoo.com	9813432005
Sabita gurung	Active Academy	sabita_96@yahoo.com	9841681184
Prabhu Thapa	Active Academy	sabita_96@yahoo.com	9841681184
Babita Poudel	SV	sahayatra56@gmail.com	9808779907
Anjan Shrestha	SV	anjanstha56@gmail.com	9808875128
Manoj Parajuli	Game	gmsg.majoj@gmail.com	9808530495, 9849524985
M.C Chautanga	Gramin College	mcchauthanga@gmail.com	9813550499
Bijaya Thapa	Active College	mylove3257@gmail.com	9841782876
Arjun Bistha	SV Academy	Bistaarjun42@yahoo.com	9841673484

Bus ride from Kathmandu to Banepa

2011-04-12T06:14:00.001-07:00

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आज काठमाण्डौँबाट केयु आउने काम पर्दा् हातमा क्यामरा थियो र यसो बाटोमा केहि रमाईलो क्षणहरु डिजिटली कैद गरौँ कि भने् क्यामरा अन द स्ट्यान्ड पारियो त “खिचिक्क-खिचिक्क” गर्दै बनेपा सम्म आइयो ।

यो कोटेश्वरमा खिचेको हो । काठमाण्डौंको पुरानो बसपार्कदेखि बनेपा जानेबेला कोटेश्वर हुदै जानु पर्छ । कोटेश्वको फुटपाथमा लुगा लगायतका अरु दैनिक उपभोग्य वस्तुहरु बेच्न राखिएको हुन्छ । अलि आखाँ तन्काएर एरपोर्टलाई घेरेको तारको बार तर हेर्ने हो भने माथिको तस्बिर देखिन सकिन्छ । भन्नलाई पिसाब नफेरौ भनिएको छ तर मैले दिशा समेत गरेको देखेको छु । छेउमै घुम्ती शोचालय अन त स्ट्यान्ड छ तर मान्छेहरु त्यहि त होनि जति भनेपनि मान्ने हैन । नेपालको हरेक खराब बिशेषता मध्य यउटा के पनि हो भन्दा नियम-कानुन त राम्रै बन्छन तर कार्यन्बयन उचित तरिकाले हुदैन । नेपालीहरु पनि सबै कुरा थाँहा हुँदा हुँदै पनि बुझ पचाएर बस्ने नमिठो अवस्था छ ।

खलासीलाई पछाडीबाट गाडी अगाडि लैजाने संकेत आईसक्या जस्तो

छ । साइडमा मान्छेहरु आ-आफ्नो गन्तव्यतीरका गाडि पर्खदै छन् । यो पनि कोटेश्वरमै हो ।

अब जडिबुटी आउनै लाग्यो । जापान र नेपालको जोईन्ट ईफोर्टमा बनेको एकदम आधुनिक बाटो देख्न सकिन्छ ।

जडिबुटि आयो । माथि देखाइएको तस्बिरमा जडिबुटि प्रशोधन केन्द्रको मुख्य भवन देखिन सकिन्छ । म धुलिखेल जाँदा सधै देख्छु यहाँ भित्र कति मान्छेहरु लस्करै काम गरिराखेका हुन्छन् तर मैले अहिले सम्म यहाँका जडिबुटी कतै प्रयोग भएको सुनेको छेन । मिडियामा पनि यसबारे खासै चर्चा नभएर होला । यसको प्रगति होस् ।

रोडसाईटमा पार्किङ गरेर राखिएका गाडिहरु । साच्चै यी गाडीहरु बिग्रेका हुन् कि राख्ने ठाउँ नपाऐर राखिएको हो- म बुझ्न सक्दिन ।

काठमाण्डौँ – भक्तपुर मार्ग बनाउका लागी राखिएका डोजरहरु । मेसिन भएपनि मान्छेभन्दा बढि धन्यवाद दिन मन लाग्च यी गाडिहरुलाई किनभने यीनले त्सस्तो आधुनिक बाटो बनाऐर त अैले म काठमान्डौं ‍- धुलिखेल यात्राको मज्जा चाखिरहेको छु । हुन मान्छेहरुले नै नबनाएको भए र राम्ररी नचलाएको भए बाटो बन्दैनथ्यो होला तर पनि अस्तिन यउटा पत्रिका हेरेको थिएँ त्यही बाटोका स्थानीय बासीहरुले नयाँ रेलिङ भत्काएर आन्दोलन गर्दै थिए । मलाई रिस उठेको थियो । झन नेपालको यस्तो गिर्दो अवस्थामा विकासको पुर्वाधार हुनेबेला बाधा अड्चन ल्याउनेप्रति त रिस उठ्ने नै भयो ।

गाडी आफ्नै रफ्तारमा चलिरहेको थियो । बाटोमै टेन्ट खडा गरेर पुजा हो कि बिहे हो , केहि कार्यक्रम हुँदै थियो । मलाई चित्त बुझेन । कतै ठाँउ नपाएर बाटोमै , हरे हामी नेपालीहरु । बन्द गर्नुपर्यो भने बाटो, आन्दोलन गर्ने पर्यो भने बाटो, मान्छे मार्नु पर्यो भने पनि बाटो । कैले सुध्रिने हौँ हामिहरु ।

तलामाथि तला । भाँडा खाने सुर त होला नि । काम गर्नु परेन नि त ।

राजेश हमालले सिमेन्टको विुज्ञापनमा आफ्नो मसल प्रदर्शन गर्दै । रियल जुसको प्रकरण पछि वहाँ आजभोलि सिमेन्टको विज्ञापनमा व्यस्त दखिनुहुन्च । वहाँलाई मेरो शुभकामना ।

बाफ्रे अर्को सिनेमा हल बनाउन आट्या जस्तो देखिन्छ तर पक्कै पनि होईन होला । सुपर मार्केट हुन सक्छ ।

साल घारी आउन भन्दा अगाडि राधे राधे श्याम – कुने धार्मिक प्रवचन गर्ने स्थल जस्तो देखिन्छ । मलाई एकपटक जान मन त छ तर सधै सोच्ने मात्र त हो नि ।

ऐन सेलको विज्ञापन । थुप्रै अफर र शहुलियतहरु दिन्छ रे । म पनि किन्नु पर्छ कि के हो एउटा एन-सेलको सिम ।

सुर्यविनायक आउदै छ र खलासी मान्छे पाईन्छ कि भन्ने फितलो आशमा ।

ग्रिपरको खलासी होला सायद- ड्राऐभरको साईडमा बस्दै कुल्फी हो कि वरफ हो, गर्मीमा जिव्रोलाई ठन्डा पार्दै छ । मलाई त एन-डिसको आईसक्रिमको पो याद आयो त हौँ ।

त्यत्रा डोजरहरु छन्, यसलाई कते ठेगाना लगाउनु नै । खालि फेसन गर्ने राखेको जस्तो देखिन्छ , त्यति राम्रो बाटोको सौन्दर्यमा दाग मात्र लगाईराखेको छ

आईस्सि पढ्दा ३-४ वर्षअगाडि खुबै फिल्म हेर्न गईन्थ्यो तर खे नगाको धेरै भयो । सायद बुढेसकाल लाग्या होला । खित् खित् (हाँसेको)

पेट्रोलको हाहाकारी छ देशमा तर पेट्रोम पम्पहरु बन्या-बन्यै छन् । भोलि पर्सी घाँटामा गयो अनि फेरी आन्दोलन, मूल्य वृद्धी । हरे ।

झोला गरुङगो छ । बस पनि खै कतिखेर आउने हो । बोक्न पनि ढाड दुख्ने । बेस्ट उपाए – ब्याग पनि भिरिने र फोहोर पनि नलाग्ने । –जगातिमा ।

शिक्षालाई राष्ट्र कवजको रुपमा लेखिएको छ –माथिको स्कुलको भवनमा ।

नलिनचोक आउन आट्यो । ईट्टा भट्टाहरु थुप्रै देख्न सकिन्छ ।

गाईको फोटो खिच्न खोज्या हो तर थुन र खुट्टा मात्र पो आएछ ।

पलाँसेको मोडनेर बुढा-बुढि काम गरिराखेका । युवाहरु देश बाहिर गएर होला देशमा माटो खन्ने खाली बृद्धमात्र देखिन्छन् ।

साँगा भञ्ज्याङ मा नवनिर्मित – संसारमै शिवको सवैभन्दा ठुलो मुर्ती- कैलाशनाथ महादेँव । शनिबार तिर खुबै भिड हुने गर्छ यो नया पर्यटक स्थलमा ।

सांगा आउनै आट्यो ।

साँगा पुग्नु ठिक आगाडी गोलछामा एक मन्दिर ।

कहाँ छ यो ?

भाँडा त छुटेन है । सांगा, काभ्रेपलाञ्चोक । सांगाले भक्तपुर र काभ्रेपलाञ्चोक छुट्याउँछ ।

दीपेन्द्र प्रहरी स्कुल । मैले आफ्नो बाल्यकालको ६ वर्षको पढाई यहि स्कुलको दाङको शाखामा पढेको छु । खुबै याद आऊछ मलाई यस होडिङ बोर्डलाई देखेपछि ।

कुनै गार्डेनको विज्ञापन जस्तो देखिन्छ । सायद चलेन होला ।

टाउको खै ।

रङगिचङगि घर । रातो-गुलाबी-फिक्का रातो, हरियो लस्करै घरहरु । बनेपा आउन २ किलोमिटर ।

पिपुल्स क्यामपस । पहिला यो अलि अगाडी थियो अहिले अलि बनेपा ओरै

यात्रु चढ्या छेन गाडी चल्न थालिसक्यो ।

बनेपा आयो ।

के हेरि राख्या होला ? अलि बाटो छेउमा गएर त उभ्भिनु नि यार ।

त्यही फलफुल खायो अनि मज्जाले त्यहि फ्याक्यो । हरे हामी फोहोरिहरु ।

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बेनपामा बेरोजगार डोजर –विचरा ।

नेपाल टलिकमको टावर बनेपामा ।

बसपार्क आयो ।

सलाईको डब्बाजस्तो कति अग्लो घर हो । भुईचाँलो आयो भने यसको हालत के हो ।

खे केको टावर हो । एनटिसि के होला ।

एक भारतीय नागरिक फोन गर्दै ।

ला के गर्ने ? सपिङ चाहिँ टन्नै गरिएछ ।

पन्डित बाजे- “यो गाडी पनौति जान्च कि नाई ?”

काँक्रा खानुस, प्यास बुझाउनुस । भन्नलाई चाहिँ १० रु भन्छ तर रु ५ मा दिन्छ । मुर्दा देशीले जिउँदो नेपालीलाई ठग्च भनेको यहि हो कि कसो ?

फोटो कपि देखाउँदै पैसा माग्दै । काम गर्नु पर्दै यी महिलालाई, खाली तयो लेमिनेशन गरेको सर्टिफिकेट जस्तो कागज देखायो अनि निन्याउरो अनुहार देखाएर पैसा माग्यो ।

दु:ख गर्नेलाऐ बाटो सधै खुला रहने रहेच । यो किशोर आफ्नो रोजी-रोटी आफै गर्छ, खुसी लाग्यो । मैले पनि एउटा खाम त सोचेको थिएँ तर जन्डिसको डर लाग्यो । चार वर्ष अगाडी लागेको जन्डिसको डर अझै मरेको छैन मलाई । बाहिरको त पानी पनि खान्न भनेको सुन्दा पत्याउन गार्हो पर्ला है ।

आखिर बनेपा आइछाड्यो – १ घन्टा १० मिनेटको यात्रा सफल ।

Generation Zed by AbhiManyu

2011-04-11T01:31:00.001-07:00

Film making is just not my cup of tea. Fortunately there are some genius guys (I am not flattering) like AbhiManyou, Kshitiz, Shail, Rajan etc whose ideas are just sufficient to provoke ones level of concern towards any ignored issues. These are my colleagues so I have that source of consolation that atleast these people are always there whom I can admire endlessly. Their works fascinated because of the one reason that I can’t do what the can and what they are doing. Translating idea or concept into a smooth running audio-visual format needs a lot work, isn’t it? In the film-show we watch two movie in just 25 minutes. Later in the discussion part, we head that it took a lot of days including insomniac nights to make that venture a real one. That movie Generation Zed which was just a idea inside this genius-jerk (AbhiManyou) now is tangible and accessible in Docskool, Gaurighat. Everyone is welcome there. Here I have just talked about Generation Zed but I also watched another brilliant movie titled Between the line by Kailash. But here I will only talk about Manyu’s film due to time factor.

With Film makers: Manyu & Kailash

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This AbhiMnyou guy is just of off-the-beat type. I mean to say his way of conversation (mixture of pause, stammering, sense of humor), writing (English mixed with nepali) and sometimes explosion of vulgar terminologies are just native. I used to read his Facebook article (all those grass stuffs, alcohol, boys-girls things in KU etc.) In other words, we hardly get to see such combination of multiple gestures in one person commonly. (sorry for being judgmental but i truly respect Manyu’s sentiments) sometimes he seems confused in saying what he did or what he should have done but that is my perception. But what I believe is that the push he gives out of the circle of such confusions has yielded such a thought-provoking and short film like “Generation Zed”.

Generation Zed has portrayed a girl aged between 18-22 who is highly obsessed about her physical shape. Her daily life styles and her activities in the movie reflects her concern about her longing for low weight and slim body rather than a good health.

I want to answer one question here. How this movie title “Generation Zed” is relevant to the content? here” Zed” has been referred to the present generation who are highly driven by consumerism. The protagonist or the central character is trying to fit herself in the highly consumer-driven society by making way-out from the pre-existing social box at the cost of her health.

I want to answer another question here. Whom “Generation Zed” has targeted? Yes, it has targeted everyone who are either already swimming in the consumer-inflicted pool or are about to take a plunge in this consumer-driven way of life. At the cost of their health. the new youth generation is trying to achieve something that has no way out. The central character’s vulnerability towards death or insecurity increases with her immature attempt to break the general rules of a closed societal box.

Another question I don’t know whether it is relevant here or not. What has this movie to do with Nepali people or let say Nepali youth? Nepali youth are already victimized by Brain drain. Does this movie poke them to stay within their country or triggered the sense of nationalism? No. And I don’t think it is necessary to provoke such theme in every movie to get space in nepali Audience. What I want to state here is some reason why Nepali youth can find this short 10-minute long movie a catalyst to widen their horizon of dealing pattern with ignored issue like consumerism. We are shaped by these technologies, our perceptions are already programmed somewhere in the silicon-chips and we remain aware about those updates.

I also have complain that Generation Zed has only targeted Kathmandu Youth. Rural Youth audience remained in the shadow area. I believe they must have equal say on the issue raised in the movie. I am very much eager to know more response about this movie from audience of diverse background. Specially who female reacts on the issue raised in the movie. Is that anything to do with Director being a male. Or may be if director u was a female, the would she chose a male character to cast the “Generation Zed”? What impact would it have shown in reference to the present style? well, the array of questions remained unanswered but there is a long way to go. I wish Manyu my best regard for his filming career. Hey why don’t you cast me? (Just kidding hai pheri hehe!!)

(right now I am not in the mood to write anymore just be satisfied by seeing the photos of the events. Thank you for reading.)

“रोमको एउटा फूल र प्यारिसको एउटा काँडा”

2009-11-08T07:37:00.000-08:00

“लिजाको ओठबबाट निस्केका अनर्गल शब्दहरु नाइगारा फल्सको झरनाजस्तो लाग्छ । उसलाई कति बोल्नुपर्छ” यो वाक्यले मेरो मन च्वास्स छोएको थियो “रोमको एउटा फूल र प्यारिसको एउटा काँडा” पढ्दा । लैनसिँह बाङ्देलको मनभित्र लिजाकालागी उतपन्न यी शब्दहरु उनको नियात्रा सँस्मरणका पानासम्महुँदै पाठकका मनभित्र गएर विलिन भए तर लिजाको कानमा कहिल्यै पुगेन । “लिजालाई हेर्छु । लीजाको अनुहारमा आधुनिक रोम देख्छु ” यस सँस्मरणमा उल्लेखित वाङ्देलका यी वाक्यवाट थाँहा हुन्छ रोमकी लिजा परम्परावादी र पुराना विचार-धारालाई नभएर आधुनीक रोमको रहन शहनमा माएकी नारीको प्रतिनिधित्व गर्छे । वाङ्देलको रोमदेखि लन्डनसम्मको यात्रामा दुई सुन्दर र प्रतिभाशालीनारी मोनिक र लिजाका बारेमा दिएका व्यक्तिगत तथा मनोविश्लेषणात्मक विचारहरु सम्झन लायकका छन् । सामान्य घटनाको आडमा पनि आफ्ना नजिका पात्रहरुको बारेम त्यती शुक्ष्म स्तरमा व्यक्त गर्ने बाङ्देलको विशेष कलाको प्रशँसा त गर्नैपर्छ । बाङ्देलले व्याख्या गरेजस्तै रोमका ठूलाठूला इमारतहरु र एतिहासिक दरबार र मुर्तिहरु कसलाई आफ्नै आँखाले दर्शन गर्न मन नलाग्ला र ? अनी फरी साङ्केतिक रुपमा लिजालाई रोमको फूल र मोनिकलाई प्यारिसको एउटा काँडा भन्नु पछाडीका कारणहरु उनको यस नियात्रा सँस्मरणमा सजिलैसँग पहिल्याउन सकिन्छ ।

रोम र प्यारीसको यो यात्रा वाङ्देलको पहिलो चाहिँ पक्कै होइन, त्यसैले होला उनी अतित सम्झदै लेख्छन् “ एउटा मामुली कोठा हुन्थ्यो, प्यारिसनजिकैको देहातको एउटा सस्तो कोठा भाँडामा थियो, त्यही कोठामा पकाउनु, खानु, बस्नु, अध्ययन गर्नु र चित्र लेख्नु सबै कुरा हुन्थ्यो, तर मानिसको मनै कस्तो अनौठो किसिमको हुँदो रहेछ । आज अतीततिर फर्केर हेर्दा उही सँघर्ष र दु:खको दिन प्यारो र मीठो लाग्दछ ।” विदेशमा रहँदा पनि वाङ्देल आफ्ना गाँउशहर र नेपाली दाजुभाईलाई उल्लेख गर्न नविर्सिएको देखिन्छ । अन्त्यमा रोमको एउटा फूल र प्यारिसको एउटा काँडा दिएर वाङ्देल लन्डन हुँदै दुई सातापछि अमेरिका पुगेपनि सबै पाठकलले सजिलै सँग अन्दाजी लगाउन सक्छन की वाङ्देलका आँखामा लिजा र मोनिकका तस्विरहरु सधैँ नाचिरहने छन् ।
-शेखर केसी

The First 10 Clicks of my Life

2009-06-01T09:27:00.000-07:00

I recently bought my digital camera Sony Cybershot DSC H10. These are The First 10 clicks of my life.

It's so boring nowadays

2009-05-23T08:32:00.000-07:00

Today 18th May, 2009 i am feeling very boring. There are many reason behind why i am feeling so passive and disturbed. EVerything seems to be unmanaged. Jhyou lagera duita film here. 'Buterfly Effect part 3 " and "Sexy teacher" korean movie. Ekdum jhyou lagera timepass garna matra hereko, natari khasai ma film herne manche chai hoina. Yeso newsite haru kholeko ja pani Madhav Kumar Nepal, Pradhanmantri Bhayeko headline dekhchu ani mero kanchatti tatera auucha. Janatako Janadesh nai napayeko manche desho sabbhanda powerful position ma hune bhanepachi hamro desh Nepal ma nahune kei rahenacha. Ajha k k huna baki cha hola, dekhna baki nai cha.
Arko kura mero digital camera auuna baki cha, jasko ma ekdum parkhaima chu. Tyo camera ayepachi ma k k garne plan cha, sochi sadhye chaina yaar. Tyo camera auna dhilo bhayeko le pani ma ekdum boring feel garirachu.

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Why i want to learn photography??

2009-05-22T08:08:00.000-07:00

Before i got interested to photo journalism, I used to think that everything end with a single click in taking photo. I was wrong. Photo has such a powerful influence when viewed from a wide perspective. Every photo should have some objectives, that is what I have learned till the date. It doesn’t end with a single click. I realized it just a 8 months ago. I am very lucky that I have some of my colleagues who take very good picture, who portray very wide perspective of our human interest.
The main motive behind taking this photo-journalism workshop is to stimulate my rigor for taking photo. Beside that I am interesting in digital story telling. Some of my works can be found in my website kcshekhar.com.np related to photo story telling. But I really want to click the camera with my own intuition that needs a proper guidance. Ventzine has set up such a strong platform which I think is the best channel to get that proper guidance.
I don’t know the technical terms used in photo-journalism. Some of my friends tell such words when they show their photo and I really get confused and feel inferior due to my ignorance. It’s not like I hesitate to take suggestion from them but I become afraid often thinking that my own view towards photography will be steered towards their direction of photography. I want to set up my own photographic perspective by the help of professional photographers. I want to know what they think before clicking the button of camera and after clicking it.
Being honest to ventzine team, I want to say that till date I haven’t make any determination to make photography an option for career development but I really want to make, every photo I click, an embedded part of my personality, my interest, my hobby and my long journey of learning.
Also I am a media student and photojournalism is a mandatory course that I should take oneday but I don’t make the culture of taking photo a part of my curriculum which is judged merely on the basis of marks. Photo can’t be judged by numbers because photo represent the most memorable time of our life, photo helps us to express our self and photo is something that inspires others to broaden their mind and stimulate them to see something from diverse angle, which is essential in every part of our daily life.
Finally I would like Ventzine team to give me a chance to attend the photo journalism workshop because I really need. I have my own simple digital camera and I want protect its glory by taking photo which really have some objective and that makes some difference in the mind of people like me who used to think early that every things end with a single click in photography.

IN love with...... Radio Nepal

2009-05-20T09:54:00.000-07:00

Radio Nepal, the only government Audio Broadcast station, was very good. wE all friends got chance to meet there with many governmental officials and radio officials. We entered the recording studio and live studio. The environment was so piece and it was the place where i really wanted to work.
Previously i used to think like governmental office are very uneasy place to stay, small workspace and many uncomfortable place to work. But after i meet there, i find it very good. I had one friend there who used to read news but she happened to have evening shift so i couldn't met here. But our visit was very useful and i liked. Thank you to Assistant Professor Nirmala Mani Adhikary , our teacher,who gave us such chance to visit the place.

Why am i doing this?

2009-05-19T09:21:00.000-07:00

Hello everybody, this is my personal blog and i want to write anything i wanted here. I am neither frustrated nor exhilirated. Neither i am ecstatic nor sad. I have become a pendulum moving to and fro between optimism and pessimism. hey everybody forgive me al if there are any gramitical mistake becuase i just don't to be abide all those does and dont's. I just want to vent anything i like. If it happens to hurt anybody then forgive me la.
I don't know whether my action are right or wrong especially in case of relationship. Since i landed on Bachelor life whether it my friendship with guys or any girls or say our seniors brothers or sister, i always opted for easy going and easy coming relationship. It's fine whether it exist or not because i just can't help if become a part of somebody. I just want to be free. I know everybody wants. But i want to be free by freeing myself from boundary of sticky friendship. I just don't like hanging with guys, walking in gangs and all those stuffs because i was never made to do such stuffs. My background was different. I had never friends like i have now. People don't understand this and they simply accuse of trying to isolate myself from the friends circle. why i should be far circle. I like friends but i just don't like for gathering for no reason. If i am not enjoying the gathering then why should i spoil others time of enjoyment.
so i just want to tell everybody that i am not that kind of guy who "always" like to stick with the same mood, same friends and same way of approach. That doesn't mean i don't like my class mates or sth something like that misunderstanding stuff. I like to be with my friends but i want other understand that if i am not there also, they should act neutrally. Since nothing is permanent but the change as said by one of my friend, I don't like to live by making huge pile of dreams and follow it. I like to live in present. i LIke to do silly things around my friends so that atleast i can create some smile in their face. Doing silly things doesn't mean i am emotionally immatured or sth like that. I am able and capable to hold my self-esteem and i know i can contribute to this nation and the people who are not enough lucky like me to enjoy the priviledge like i am enjoying. And i enjoy the present thought i don't know why i am doing this and that?

aRe yOu BeiNg USed?

2009-05-03T03:48:00.000-07:00

My question is simple। Are we doing what we wanted? Or, are we doing what we never opted to do? Are we being driven by other’s will? Or May be we are doing just for the shake of doing. The matter of dignity, the issues of pride, ego, self-respect and self-esteem fails at that right point when you fail to give answers to these questions. I am sorry that you have become a slave and it’s for nothing. Either you are being useful to others or you are being used by others. I must be accountable for why I dare to ask such a silly question. So let me display the exact scene playing in my mind right now because this is very serious issue to talk about.

As far as my life is concerned, I have been sensing series of dissatisfactions for either doing this or not doing that. Why I should always be guided by so many does and don’t until I encroach other’s boundary. If I go on listing the only thing I wanted, the paper would be blank. From childhood, I went school, obeyed my teachers and followed their instructions. When I was allowed to go home, I would pack up my bag and catch bus heading home. I was compelled to pack only the clothes they provided; I was allowed to ride the bus they showed me; I was given a deadline to come back to boarding school or I had to voluntarily invite slaps. I guess it’s the wrong article to disclose all my stories. So let me continue from where I started.

What are we doing all of the time? As a student, we may be pouring our sight at books, writing notes, doing homework or pressing your uniform for tomorrow’s class. It doesn’t matter who you were, who you are and what you will be. The only thing that matter is what you do. So what you are doing right now is the most crucial thing .Is it what you wanted to do or you are doing that for others? It may be for your friends or family member. You are driven by others like a paralyzed man sitting in a wheel chair being pushed by a nurse.

Don’t get confused with doing this and that. Everybody desire to own a skyscraper and ride Pazero but I am not talking about those fantasies and out-reach activities that require something that is out of your reach. AFter all it is not necessary for a wealthy person to live in extravagant luxury like that of Posh.

Never mind, I am not stressing not to do what you are doing right now nor I am judging what you are doing. I am just asking “Are you doing what you want that is with in your reach”. Now series of question might fall on your head. Put aside those questions and listen to my further explanation.

I am very much concerned about the fear of being used. On manifestation level, I am independent, nobody even can dare to impose me to fetch a pot of water, but the reason why I am so much scratching my head on this issue is: “Am I being used by others without being aware that I am being used?”. If I am not aware of that then surely “I am being used”. But my attempt was never that. I always wanted to be useful for others. I always wanted to make space in others life which may be not so much mandatory but every time I gave my time to others, I was aware of what I was doing. I think it does totally depend upon us to be useful for others or being used by others. See, there is such a vast difference between being useful and being used.

So remember one thing: One is being used if he/she is unaware of what he/she is doing for others? And that creates problem. That should not be what one wanted to do. So I am again asking one question: Are you being useful for others or you are being used????